Hi Alethia- I am keeping up with your writing. I want to encourage you today because you have completed your first week of real change. We both know change is difficult, and change always requires determination. I am so proud of you and I want you to know that I think if you often each day. Do not worry about your job!!! I will be holding the door open when you are ready to return. I love you Alethia! Stay strong!!
Thank you so much for the feedback- Sundays are the free days here and I think these will actually be the hardest for me as each week I will be a little more homesick.
Your dreams are your body and minds way of working through the excess emotion and energy. It’s important to acknowledge them for what they are, but also not to give them any extra power over you (something I’m not always so successful at 😉
Both your body and your mind are getting stronger, so that can mean that your dreams may get more intense until you deal with that emotional energy. You’re working through it! <3
~d
Rather than an end weight goal, it seems like you are forming an overall lifestyle-change goal, which will ultimately affect your weight. Do you have an idea yet of what you’d like that lifestyle change to look like, either short of long term?
I am so proud for you, sister dear. It was wonderful to speak with you, and I love you bushels and heaps 🙂
~d
Long term more vitality and longer life- short term weight loss and adjustment of bad habits- I do not have a specific timeline goal in losing the weight as it has taken me almost 30 years to gain it – I figure every lb less is a lb closer to the long range goals.
I know what you mean – I talked to one of the trainers – and she let me know that there is actually ‘over hydration’ dehydration also – but she did not think that was the case in my situation. I honestly think its because I’ve been pushing so hard to get back to that runners high again heh… it was just an amazing feeling.
Keep up the good progress! You have much to find and much to let go of…and time to use to your best advantage! And thank you for another entertaining post!
Sounds like you are “ready to start” saying goodbye to some old clothing friends! This is Soo easy and even exciting, yet can feel somehow overwhelming and a little sad. I love reading how the days are so adventurous. You are making headway…on all levels…The after yoga picture you shared is beautiful! Have you checked the little thumb drive? I wish you a wonderful day Alethia…filled with more revelations and new coping mechanisms. AND Lots of Laughter!!!!!
you are more than welcome for the sunscreen help! yes the first week u kept me up… but now I am just used to the sound and block it out! so its all good!!! 🙂 cant wait to do stop sign with you today!!!!
You are a Beautiful Strong woman setting precedent for the rest of your life! You are Also Very Cute! Lots of Fun! AND many people are looking forward to your return! Love and Live the life you choose!
Naked Bear I think is the granola you’re talking about, and they sell it at Sprouts. HEB now has HEB brand almond milk, we should take a look at that…the unsweet vanilla said 40 calories a serving.
So…how the heck do they make their Risotto? Risotto should be gluten free, as it is made with rice. So I am not sure why they gave you plain rice instead of flavored rice. I hope they actually know what they are talking about food-wise, as that leaves me feeling a bit concerned that they do not.
I have really enjoyed reading about your experiences. As I write this you are probably on your way home for some long deserved family time. Please keep blogging and let us know how you are doing.
Thank you for the feedback Nancie! So glad you have been enjoying the blog – I’m actually in last minute frantic packing stages right now – more updates later.
Such a beautiful tribute to years of joy. I’m sorry that your family is experiencing the loss of Sasha. No doubt she knew how lucky she was that you all found each other to care for, comfort and love unconditionally. I hope you all feel her love touching your heart always, and when you’re ready, may it bring a smile that will wash away the tears.
–Theresa
A wonderful writing of a collection of memories. Sorry to hear of your loss. We will keep you, Phil and ‘family’ in our prayers. Shalom, Sasha has gone to the other side.
Take a look at Food.com. They have a recipe for Madras Lentils that sure looks like it would be the “one.” They still have them at our Costco? Still want to make them on my own. I think I would increase the tomatoes to a quart instead of a pint.
curious if you ever tried to replicate the Tasty Bite Madras Lentils and how it turned out. My son loves them, I cook Indian food all the time and want to figure out the right flavor.
Over at the Doom Wiki we are having a discussion about whether or not Alien Cabal is a Doom II-derived game, as you suggest here. Could you elaborate on this point, and perhaps post some evidence to help clear up the matter?
Sorry this took so long. IIRC the developer started on the game sometime after Doom II was released. I know he spent some time correcting issues in the original game engine, but I don’t know much about why he chose GOB over WAD. I will see if I can get ahold of the original developer for clarification.
So I was of course mistaken here, based on earlier conversations we had had. Yes he tried to correct issues that the original game engine had, but by writing his own! At that time I was a clerk in a convenience store and played games for fun, and knew almost zip about games. After all these years I had a version of what it was stuck in my head and well, much like Jon Snow, I knew nothing.
Looked kinda Doom ish, played kinda doom ish, and early conversations with Greg made me think it was doom ish. My fault. Greg of course wrote it, and he is the absolute authority. I mostly tested levels, vedit, geometry and created some cool elements, but actually coding something like this is still beyond my capabilities today perhaps.
I bought Alien Cabal and have the game on the original CD. Having played it, I think Alien Cabal is a fairly well done game. I like the sound effects that are used, the music that plays on the main menu screen is catchy, and the gameplay, while not quite as fast paced as other FPS games of the time like 3D Realms’ Duke Nukem 3D and id Software’s Quake, is still fun with varied level designs and awesome weapons.
I managed to get in contact with Greg Taylor, the guy who founded the company QASoft. He released Alien Cabal as freeware, making the full version of the game legal to download for free, this year a few months ago. I did research regarding information about the game engine used in the early Doom games (Doom, Doom II, etc.) and found out that the game engine is not capable of supporting multi level structures (an area with a room on top of another room), nor is it able to create surfaces that are sloped; Alien Cabal has both of these features. It wasn’t until the advent of RORDoom, a Doom source port released in the year 2000, that it would be possible for Doom engine games to have support for room-over-room. As a test, I used the Doom source port ZDoom and tried to run Alien Cabal with it; ZDoom couldn’t find any WAD files, which are required for a Doom source port to run a Doom engine game (Alien Cabal lacks WAD files), and the game wouldn’t run. I did get Alien Cabal to run with the DOSBox program, though, and it worked great!
The doomwiki.com page that Graham W posted was updated on January 18, 2015 with a comment from Greg Taylor himself. Here’s a portion of the comment from him about Alien Cabal on that website:
“It was inspired by Doom but uses nothing from it. I wrote the 3D engine myself. The core texture mapper was actually written in highly optimized x86 assembly code. It was fun stuff back in the day.”
Here’s the source where I got the information about Alien Cabal being released as freeware (I contacted Greg Taylor about the lack of a download link for the full version of the game and he’s trying to get that worked out with the RGB Classic Games website): http://www.classicdosgames.com/game/Alien_Cabal.html
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Ditto….
Yes, you are. I have total and complete faith in you!
Great job Alethia! Sounds like your efforts are already paying off in some good and uplifted energy! Make sure you are drinking your water! Xoxo
Sending love and support your way! You are finding yourself!
Ok- I’ve totally missed what you are doing, but it sounds important!
Hi Alethia- I am keeping up with your writing. I want to encourage you today because you have completed your first week of real change. We both know change is difficult, and change always requires determination. I am so proud of you and I want you to know that I think if you often each day. Do not worry about your job!!! I will be holding the door open when you are ready to return. I love you Alethia! Stay strong!!
Thank you so much for the feedback- Sundays are the free days here and I think these will actually be the hardest for me as each week I will be a little more homesick.
Your dreams are your body and minds way of working through the excess emotion and energy. It’s important to acknowledge them for what they are, but also not to give them any extra power over you (something I’m not always so successful at 😉
Both your body and your mind are getting stronger, so that can mean that your dreams may get more intense until you deal with that emotional energy. You’re working through it! <3
~d
Rather than an end weight goal, it seems like you are forming an overall lifestyle-change goal, which will ultimately affect your weight. Do you have an idea yet of what you’d like that lifestyle change to look like, either short of long term?
I am so proud for you, sister dear. It was wonderful to speak with you, and I love you bushels and heaps 🙂
~d
Long term more vitality and longer life- short term weight loss and adjustment of bad habits- I do not have a specific timeline goal in losing the weight as it has taken me almost 30 years to gain it – I figure every lb less is a lb closer to the long range goals.
Sending love and support your way.
Dehydration? You? Srsly? Wow. That is crazy weird. Please drink plenty of water honey!
I know what you mean – I talked to one of the trainers – and she let me know that there is actually ‘over hydration’ dehydration also – but she did not think that was the case in my situation. I honestly think its because I’ve been pushing so hard to get back to that runners high again heh… it was just an amazing feeling.
Keep up the good progress! You have much to find and much to let go of…and time to use to your best advantage! And thank you for another entertaining post!
Awesome job! I knew you could do it. Keep up the positive thoughts and hardwork.
Thanks Wendi! Now towards the end of week 2 its actually starting to get a little easier.
So glad you’re blogging about this. Writing is such an important way of processing and understanding who we are.
Thank you Lauren for the support!
You hiked!! I am so glad to hear this. I want to read that you walk to Little Stop Sign this week. You can do it. Really. You can do it.
Sounds like you are “ready to start” saying goodbye to some old clothing friends! This is Soo easy and even exciting, yet can feel somehow overwhelming and a little sad. I love reading how the days are so adventurous. You are making headway…on all levels…The after yoga picture you shared is beautiful! Have you checked the little thumb drive? I wish you a wonderful day Alethia…filled with more revelations and new coping mechanisms. AND Lots of Laughter!!!!!
you are more than welcome for the sunscreen help! yes the first week u kept me up… but now I am just used to the sound and block it out! so its all good!!! 🙂 cant wait to do stop sign with you today!!!!
squirrel!!! 🙂
Grow baby grow!!
You are a Beautiful Strong woman setting precedent for the rest of your life! You are Also Very Cute! Lots of Fun! AND many people are looking forward to your return! Love and Live the life you choose!
Here comes ZUMBA!!!! Xoxo
Naked Bear I think is the granola you’re talking about, and they sell it at Sprouts. HEB now has HEB brand almond milk, we should take a look at that…the unsweet vanilla said 40 calories a serving.
And yeah, take that corn!
So…how the heck do they make their Risotto? Risotto should be gluten free, as it is made with rice. So I am not sure why they gave you plain rice instead of flavored rice. I hope they actually know what they are talking about food-wise, as that leaves me feeling a bit concerned that they do not.
It was a barley risotto
Alethia,
I have really enjoyed reading about your experiences. As I write this you are probably on your way home for some long deserved family time. Please keep blogging and let us know how you are doing.
Nancie (your cousin)
Thank you for the feedback Nancie! So glad you have been enjoying the blog – I’m actually in last minute frantic packing stages right now – more updates later.
I cant believe u are going to be gone when I get back… already miss u hun!
Yes…yes you do…So make certain some of the outings are things he really wants to do. You are both doing very well… It is a BIG change :). Enjoy it!
Zumba was fun, and dinner was great. A Good Friday, indeed 🙂
Happy Happy Birthday Alethia! I love you very very much!!!
Love, Mom
Such a beautiful tribute to years of joy. I’m sorry that your family is experiencing the loss of Sasha. No doubt she knew how lucky she was that you all found each other to care for, comfort and love unconditionally. I hope you all feel her love touching your heart always, and when you’re ready, may it bring a smile that will wash away the tears.
–Theresa
A wonderful writing of a collection of memories. Sorry to hear of your loss. We will keep you, Phil and ‘family’ in our prayers. Shalom, Sasha has gone to the other side.
Take a look at Food.com. They have a recipe for Madras Lentils that sure looks like it would be the “one.” They still have them at our Costco? Still want to make them on my own. I think I would increase the tomatoes to a quart instead of a pint.
curious if you ever tried to replicate the Tasty Bite Madras Lentils and how it turned out. My son loves them, I cook Indian food all the time and want to figure out the right flavor.
I am happy to see your post….and wishing the best for you in each area! Much Love!
Hello,
Over at the Doom Wiki we are having a discussion about whether or not Alien Cabal is a Doom II-derived game, as you suggest here. Could you elaborate on this point, and perhaps post some evidence to help clear up the matter?
http://doom.wikia.com/wiki/Talk:Alien_Cabal#Nomination_for_Deletion
Thank you.
Sorry this took so long. IIRC the developer started on the game sometime after Doom II was released. I know he spent some time correcting issues in the original game engine, but I don’t know much about why he chose GOB over WAD. I will see if I can get ahold of the original developer for clarification.
So I was of course mistaken here, based on earlier conversations we had had. Yes he tried to correct issues that the original game engine had, but by writing his own! At that time I was a clerk in a convenience store and played games for fun, and knew almost zip about games. After all these years I had a version of what it was stuck in my head and well, much like Jon Snow, I knew nothing.
Looked kinda Doom ish, played kinda doom ish, and early conversations with Greg made me think it was doom ish. My fault. Greg of course wrote it, and he is the absolute authority. I mostly tested levels, vedit, geometry and created some cool elements, but actually coding something like this is still beyond my capabilities today perhaps.
So yeah. Mea culpa.
Sending even more love and light to assist in your current and new goals!
Phillip “Phil” McNeely,
I bought Alien Cabal and have the game on the original CD. Having played it, I think Alien Cabal is a fairly well done game. I like the sound effects that are used, the music that plays on the main menu screen is catchy, and the gameplay, while not quite as fast paced as other FPS games of the time like 3D Realms’ Duke Nukem 3D and id Software’s Quake, is still fun with varied level designs and awesome weapons.
I managed to get in contact with Greg Taylor, the guy who founded the company QASoft. He released Alien Cabal as freeware, making the full version of the game legal to download for free, this year a few months ago. I did research regarding information about the game engine used in the early Doom games (Doom, Doom II, etc.) and found out that the game engine is not capable of supporting multi level structures (an area with a room on top of another room), nor is it able to create surfaces that are sloped; Alien Cabal has both of these features. It wasn’t until the advent of RORDoom, a Doom source port released in the year 2000, that it would be possible for Doom engine games to have support for room-over-room. As a test, I used the Doom source port ZDoom and tried to run Alien Cabal with it; ZDoom couldn’t find any WAD files, which are required for a Doom source port to run a Doom engine game (Alien Cabal lacks WAD files), and the game wouldn’t run. I did get Alien Cabal to run with the DOSBox program, though, and it worked great!
The doomwiki.com page that Graham W posted was updated on January 18, 2015 with a comment from Greg Taylor himself. Here’s a portion of the comment from him about Alien Cabal on that website:
“It was inspired by Doom but uses nothing from it. I wrote the 3D engine myself. The core texture mapper was actually written in highly optimized x86 assembly code. It was fun stuff back in the day.”
Here’s the source where I got the information about Alien Cabal being released as freeware (I contacted Greg Taylor about the lack of a download link for the full version of the game and he’s trying to get that worked out with the RGB Classic Games website): http://www.classicdosgames.com/game/Alien_Cabal.html
Yeah, you’re totally right. BTW, Thanks for purchasing!
(This is just as a correction regarding my previous post.) Alien Cabal was released as freeware in 2000, not in 2015.